This has been on my mind for a couple days now and I hope my man won't mind me talking about this but...tonight we are going out with a friend of his (who through twitter I am becoming friends with) and her fiance. What I teased Kevin about and I will no longer, is that this friend he did date at one time before me. The sweetheart said he would cancel if it would be awkward for me. I'm been thinking about it. It doesn't, I'm actually excited to meet her since we get along so well on twitter.

First of all, Kevin and I have deep trust for each other. Secondly, we are married. I have nothing to worry about. Also, Kevin and I talk...about everything. It'd be different if she was 1)single and 2) she was going behind my back to see Kevin. This is not the case at all. But I am not going to lie, both of us girls will be probably size each other up. It's just the way ladies roll. :P
These are things I never anticipated myself thinking about. Analyzing. Finding out where I stand on certain issues. But here I am continuously learning about myself and growing deeper in relationship with Kevin which is creating a wonderful marriage.

Last night Kevin and I decided to catch a movie and one that has been catching a lot of Oscar buzz - "Black Swan". I agreed to see this because I like psychological thrillers for the most part and well I also wanted to know what the buzz was all about.

I cried.

There was a moment near the last quarter of the movie that freaked me out so much that I just started to heave with sobs. And as the movie continued with some disturbing scenes and the intensity had me seized in my seat clutching to Kevin. It took sweet words and tenderness from Kev to get me calmed down. The only other movie that got me so worked up was "Lovely Bones".

Confession: I have a very tender heart and soul. I grew up very sheltered and not exposed to movies that included sex, swearing or were scary/demonic.I kick myself sometimes for being so sensitive in mind/soul/heart and felt like a fool for crying but at the same time it's a good sign the movie is good...I got sucked in. I feel for the characters; empathize. I don't regret seeing this movie, it's definitely Oscar worthy especially Natalie Portman's acting ability!

When we got home (aka the resort) from the movies we through on something light - American Idol. So much for light! The last man to audition made me curl up into Kevin and cry. If you saw the epi you would understand and apparently/thankfully I wasn't the only one to tear up!

I love that my life is filled with learning more about myself and how blessed I am!

Mushu's Chili recipe:

2lb ground beef (while cooking mix in minced garlic, salt & pepper)
1 green bell pepper
1 red bell pepper
1 medium yellow onion
2 heaping tsp of chili powder
2 heaping tbsp of pureed chili peppers
2 heaping tsp of minced garlic
1 med can of chunky tomatoes
1 med can of tomato sauce
1 med can of kidney beans
1 med can of chick peas
1 cup of water

I had to split the chili in two as my crockpot was too small BUT the first portion turned out awesome with the right amount of kick! :)

I can't wait to try more recipes to fill the tummy of me and my man!

My last week of work wasn't the greatest. Actually I should clarify. Work was fine but me? Not so much. I had the worst case of IBS which caused me to miss work on Wednesday and feel like crap (pun intended) all week and I hardly ate a thing all week. Maybe it was partially nerves, I'll never know except that I am much better now! (Finally had a burger today!)

Our weekends plans changed and Kevin and I ended up in Port Stanley for a good chunk of the weekend. My sister has my car for the next couple of weeks so she's excited!

Sunday evening we arrived in Wasaga Beach after a 4 hr drive and a few detours (GPS suck sometimes and paper maps don't always show curves in roads!). It was -24 when we got here. My nose hairs froze on contact of stepping out of the car. :P

This morning I got up with Kevin at 4am, he went off to work while I watched BT and listened to his show for a bit then went back to bed. Later in the morning I went to the resort's lobby for some coffee and ended up chatting with a manager for 40mins. People are so nice here!

Our temporary place in Wasaga is the "Saga Resort":
Right now I do believe we are the only guests, weekends are their busy time in the winter. It's really nice though and management loves how tidy we are! (We have a full kitchen in our room, it's awesome and access to an outdoor hot tub!)

This afternoon I'm off to a meeting about a possible job! It's only p/t but it will be a nice change of pace for me!

Stay tuned for more 'Saga adventures!

So it's officially been announced to family, friends and colleagues. Kevin got a promotion/transfer to the radio station in Wasaga Beach - 97.7 The Beach which means I have quit my job (next Friday is my last day) and we are moving up there by mid-February. I'm excited!!

During the Christmas holidays I was a mix bag of emotions and my eyes kept eking out randomly even on New Years eve at one point. I was upset about the change again in our lives as we were barely getting settled in Goderich. I thought we would be settling for a long time in that town.

What do about my job? Do I stay somewhere in k/w during the week then go to Wasaga on weekends?

Plus the commute. It was killing me on so many levels. Mornings took me 2 hrs to get i Kevin went above and beyond with making me breakfast, packing my lunch, handing me a coffee on the way out the door and making dinner at night. Amazing I know! And not really fair. (Even if begs to disagree). At night I'd be zonked by 9pm and need to go to bed. Not so much fun....

So the decision. For the sake of my sanity/health and for our marriage I made the call (with lots of discussion) to give my notice and find other work/apply for ei. A giant weight fell off my shoulders immediately after this decision was made.

Here we sit. After this weekend I will be staying in Waterloo at a friends for a week while Kevin starts his new job in Wasaga. Not ideal but it's temporary and no long commute for me!

Now I am really excited about the move, finding a new place, fav hangouts, best places for pizza, ice cream...sushi. I can't wait for next week to be over so I can be with my honey every day again with more energy and a more balanced life! (I have one bit on a job so far, phone interview tomorrow morning)

I haven't blogged in over a year. |Wow, where has this year gone?

I'm a married woman now to the most amazing man in the world:
October 16th we were wed in front of family and friends, it was a beautiful day filled with love and laughter, just the way we wanted it to be! I can't believe that day has come and gone....it's been over 11 weeks but in a way it still feels like yesterday.

Confessions:
I am not used to being called wife but it's growing on me
I love my new last name so much
Being together feels like the most natural thing in the world
I never thought I'd be that girl...the one who has to be with her man. I can't get enough of Kevin

This year is starting on a relaxing note but with big changes coming very quickly. (No I am not preggers but I cannot spill the beans quite yet). I'm nervous, anxious yet excited for the adventures ahead!

I hope to blog more this year but please feel free to follow me on twitter.com, my handle is @uptowngirl

Until next time...