Most people know how hard 2008 was for me from January 21st (the "anniversary" passed and I didn't even think about it!) until mid-November.  Looking back I almost can't believe how much time has passed and what I went through.  It also seems like a lifetime ago yet I know how short ago I was struggling so much.  In that time I hid out.  I was so absorbed into my situation I neglected other people.  My life crisis was more important than anything else! Or so it seemed.

Today I had such a longing for it to be spring/summer.  It's not because of the crazy amount snow we have had or the winter seems to be dragging but it's the fact that I "missed" summer last year.  I can't remember what I did all summer because all I can remember is late fall and now.  I want to enjoy my summer this year.  I want to get out and do things I've never done before.  I want to take advantage of my work discounts.  I want to be outside.  I want more trips like I took in September with my friend Jenn to Toronto Centre Island.  I need to enjoy life more instead of letting it go past in a blur.  

I met up with my friend Heather tonight for dinner of Thai Sun and Starbucks.  It felt so good to be reconnecting with a friend again.  Catching up on the past year and talking about our future and where life has been taking us.  I need more nights out like this.  I want to laugh more.  

I find myself not quite yet "myself" yet.  Most of that comes with working a new job of which I was on days with tons of new people and now on nights with one other guy who can hardly understand/speak English.  Being "punny" hasn't happened much lately.  

I'm looking forward to change and a "newer" me in this coming year!

**I'm sharing my story soon so if you want to hear me speak, let me know and tell you the date!

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