Lately I have been reading some marriage blogs. Hey, I'm a newlywed, I need advice! Not just because we didn't get a whole lot of premarital counselling but because of the lack of guidance/examples in my life. (That's changing though, becoming friends with couples
who have been married a lot longer then us).

A big topic in our lives is birth control/family planning. I am on the pill and have to be
due to my PCOS (Polycystic ovary syndrome). So in a way I'm helping my issue and also not
getting pregnant (also PCOS means I may not even be able to have kids, talk about complicated).
I found a blog post today on birth control methods. Yes the blog was from a Christian
women and author so it's a tad religious but she was honestly laying out birth control
options for couples. But the comments? WOW. Women angry that couples don't consider using
"God" as birth control. That it's up to Him to bless you with or without a child. This angers
me so much!! I have a good friend who cannot conceive and it's hurting her. It has nothing
to do with her faith but with hormonal and other issues going on in her body. It's not God
punishing her for some sin or anything. Biology has a lot to play in this picture. Who knows
what the future has in store? A healthy hormonal body, a child in a couple years, adoption,
etc. Who are we to know except have trust in God with our heart's desire such as having a child.

I also find this irresponsible using "God" as a contraceptive. Some couples may not
want children for various reasons (too many to get in to) and they shouldn't be judged. We
are also living in a very unstable world right now! Life has changed so much since our parents
had us - many people getting married later in life, having careers over getting married or
just finding love late in life. I know there is never a perfect time to have a child but
I think having a bit of a plan, putting away funds would make life a lot easier if a child
does come along. I remember my parents raising 4 girls, the struggles, the hand me downs, the
stress of making sure food is on the table. Maybe some of us don't want to put a child
through that.

Right now I am on the fence. Maybe a child down the road maybe not. My body may not even
be able to carry a child. I'm not ready to make the decision right now. Kevin's career
moves him around a lot, I'm currently unemployed. Not a smart time to have a child! (Don't
read into this, I am so no even ready to think about popping one out! :P)

A side note: Sex is more than procreation!! (I could RANT about this so much!) I knew someone
once who told me sex was for the man and baby making, that's it. *sigh* Talk about an unhealthy
understanding of the role sex plays in marriage! (Which sadly has a lot to due with lack of education at home and from the church)

Everyone has their beliefs, I get that but forcing it on others?! I don't agree with that.
Explaining your beliefs is fine too but don't get angry! Think a little about the struggles
some others may be going through. Be sensitive! Some people can't just have a baby.

I am very happy I don't have pressure from neither my parents or in-laws. I also go to a church that doesn't judge me for not having a child as soon as we were married. I'm fortunate!

I think I'm done ranting...for now! :P

I know it's been a long time since I blogged - so much has happened in the past year it's almost unbelievable!

In the past 6 months or so my hubby has started to look for other work. We thought we had an in to a job in Yellowknife. Yup, I said it. Yellowknife. Both sets of parents were supportive. I was conflicted. We got word last week that the job is officially off the table (position changed). I am mixed about it - I was scared but also looking forward to an adventure. Door closed.

Today another door was pushed open...again but we said no. It was the possibility of going back to Goderich. We love that town but for our own well being, it wouldn't be the right choice. Financially, professionally and economically. Our favourite spots in town are gone, the town is suffering while they recover from the tornado damage... it wouldn't be the same. Plus I wouldn't be able to find work! (Tried last year around this time, it was impossible). Definitely confirmation that we made the right choice moving to Wasaga. Plus apparently Kevin's boss gave him the giant sad puppy eyes asking him to please stay! :P

While I am tucking my hubby in for his daily nap we got talking about the future. If we had made the right decisions. That I should have more faith that I will find a better job. (The resort I work at is in shoulder season - I've been off work for 2 weeks). Both of us tired of being tight on money all the time. Kevin has more faith then I do and I was just about to say that I wish I had his faith when the phone rang.

Friends of ours (new friends who we really love hanging out with) called asking if we needed any help at all with me being out of work lately. I almost cried. We came into their minds so they just called us up. My respect and love for this couple just grew huge!

To me this is God giving me a big wave reminding me the He is right here and always will be. That I need to stop doubting, to stop expecting the worst. I know that God gives us the desire of our heart*, I just need to learn to be patient!



*Desires of our heart? God knew deep down I wanted to find the love of my life and get married. He granted that and unexpectedly. He can do that for my career too I am sure! :)